HazMatt86

So another year has gone by and I'm still not publishing as much art on here as I would like. That's something I'm still working on.

I've discovered I've a lot of mental blocks and have been working on getting over them and not let them stop me from doing what I love to do. So 2018 I'm ready.

I'm ready to finally stop kicking myself and stop letting fear hold me back. I'm going to draw and post more and keep moving myself in the directions I want to go in. So bring it.

Ok here I go...I have been less and less motivated to do anything and I don't really know what to do to get past this. I really want things to change and I find that the harder work to get the change I want and in most cases need the less I am willing to give more effort.

I have been going to therapy and my therapist told me to stop believing the lies. For the most part I have and I'm a lot happier for it. It just feels like there is something missing and it keeps knawing in the back of my mind.

Really sick of this feeling...

Thank the higher powers that 2016 is over and I've made only two resolution. Get back into therapy and get myself back on my feet.

That second part has a couple layers to it like getting back into my own place and getting better with my money. Those seem easier said than done and of course but as the saying goes "nothing worth anything is ever easy."

I'm actually pretty excited about the new year ahead of us all and hope with all I got that it really is going to be great.

It has been a wild ride the last few months and 2016 has been really unforgiving so far. Had to move out of my apartment and back in with my parents. So most of my art materials are packed away in storage with the rest of my stuff. But I'm going to do my best to keep drawing and post stuff here.

Sup people! Been awhile! Hows things for all of you lovely faces? Things have picked up for me personally and feeling a lot better about everything. I still have issues yes but they're under better control than were before. And I'm absolutely loving all the big changes going on here at DA  and honestly I can't wait for the first official deviant art app to come out  .

Mostly I wrote this journal as a mental house cleaning and just how I'm feeling cause I've been quiet for so long and kind of been blocked creative wise and hope being more vocal and being a little more active in the awesomeness that is the DeviantArt community I can get over the artist block I'm going through.